today marks the day i am finally sane after a long period of dwelling in self pity and wallowing in sadness….
Y? Ask me and i cannot tell y i cannot let go the fact that i am being taken adv of in my job… maybe it is in my character that i cannot stand being literally taken adv of for too long…. and this time ard, it is so obvious that i FEEL V UPSET for myself… so ever since, i know that i needed to go and Had to go for a recruitment trip before my leisure trip in aussie…
i simply dun uds y this time ard, i am literally sad and unhappy for such a long period of time… of cos, this kind of unhappiness needs the person to wake up…
i am sick of the fact that i keep telling the others i wan a change of job… sick of the fact that i cannot change the way it works in my environment and that i have to resign to it… i know i have a choice but i am a lazy bum who is tired of changing… thus, i pity myself for being taken adv of becos of my experience and literally helpfulness to all my colleagues… so sick that i wanna be a follower… not that i previously dun wanna be a follower but i enjoy the luxury of making decisions … but not now… i hate the fact that i gotta be the decision maker… now i wanna be the one who u push, then i move… u dun push, i stay stilll….
i also dunnoe y i come to my senses.. hahaha… probably i realise that i cannot go on like tt… i may die outta sadness… during this period, i speak less, dun really like to go out and dun smile/luff a lot… quite unusual of me and i dislike tat me… so back to normal… i LOVE myself now… embrace the fact that i am always someone who takes things lightly and likes to eat to make myself happy…
i love the fact that i am surrounded with frenz who care… although most of my frenz belong to the category of “dunnoe how to console peeps”…. i love the fact that my parents love me and like to scold me for being a lazy bum .. they always remind or help me to rem things…. love the fact that i am able to go ard touring the world with peeps i love…
Love the fact that no matter how things suck, one day, it will turn ard and become happy again… love the fact that now i am able to share my previous unhappiness out on my blog … becos i am only able to spill it all out when i feel ok… Guess this isn’t healthy but i have got thru…
btw, i love choya.. been drinking for two nights… Oooppsss… this is so random…
Cheers to the love ard us… let us always try to view the good instead of the bad ard us… 
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